SENIORITIS!!

.. and it's a severe one! Gosh, my brain just shuts off. Can't think anymore. I do not even feel a tiny itsy bit of pressure for finals this time. Still want to maintain good grades though. But it's so friggin harddddd.. Thanks God I only have one sit-down exam. My other finals are paper, lab report, and a web project. I can't wait till mom, dad, gebot, and billy are here.. Graduation finally seems so close (yes it is that close!). May 21st ill be the day. I Hope the sun will not be too shy to come out despite the number of proud students and parents on this Hill. Been waiting for this day, and the weeks of travelling and shopping spree! :D
Ray, I'd love him to come to my big day. But he has to work, do his job to prepare for our BIG day ^.^ I miss him today (not that I never miss him before). He's looking content and been talking about his urge to get married soon. One day he'll be, "how about three years from now?" and the next day he'll change his mind and say, "I think I'll be ready in two years." Suprisingly, he's the one who's worried about getting married too old. Shouldn't I be the one with the anxiety of being an old virgin? hehe.. Apparently he's been going to a Christian Care Group that has many young married couples with young kids. And he decided he wants to be a dad soon too! lol. Though that would mean he needs my pass first. Of course, since I am the one who'll be in charge of carrying that big belly for 9 months. It's funny when we got into this convo, and argument about this issue. Ah Ray how I love you :) He's just too lovely. I cannot ask for a better man.

Biochem!!! NOW!!!

A Perfect Last Day of Classes

It's another Friday. But it is not quite as typical as the previous hectic Fridays I have had this semester. I had classes from 9am to 4pm with only lunch break on Friday this semester. Often, I would have an English paper due by midnight. But today is not the same exhausting Friday as usual. It's more exhausting, for sure. Since I had to wake up at 5am just to figure out that my lovely laptop did not save the essay I was working on the whole day yesterday. And that essay is due today by midnight. Great, right? I was so sad I couldn't even cry. It felt surreal, indeed. But, again, this is not a regular Friday with all the nerve wracking assignments or the tornado siren that goes off in the middle of my so-much-needed 30 mins power nap. Nope. Today is my last Friday as a Kenyon student. Today is the last day of classes, the last day I had to sit down for a lecture/ lab/ seminar at Kenyon Academia. That was probably why I felt so surrreal this morning. On my last day as a Kenyonite, this lovely school just threw me anything possible to give me a remarkable and unforgetable memory of last day of classes. But nothing will bring me down. Neither the lack of sleep, the slamming doors of my not so toughtful neighbors, nor the wickedness of my laptop for ditching my final paper just at the right time. I want to enjoy this moment, all this stresses as a student. Proud of being a student of, they call it, Harvard/ Princeton of the Midwest, I am! Kenyon had served me well, hopefully vice versa. A balanced ups and downs really taught me a lot and shaped me growing up to be I am as what I am now.

I am in my, not surprisingly, messy dorm. Leonard 316. I think I'll miss it. Before I go on and on, I probably should get my essay going, for I do not have much time. And I have Microbiology assignment due by midnight too. So ya, I'll be back! =)

That's all I will remember

you, whose name remains a mystery
have been with me on this hill for four years
the first time I saw you, we were naive
in countless dreams we believe

I have a lover and so do you
yet this special connection I cannot ignore
you found this weird? I do so too
But dont you feel you just want to know a little more?

Have I known you not
a single word we never exchanged
But I wonder how I got this special knot
you are so familiar, and it hasn't changed

Romance is not the word
for we belong to completely different world
though I know when you look at me
you are just as confused as I am puzzled. I see

your name is all I want to know
before I forget what it is like to walk in the snow
time flies and I will depart
this de ja vu, maybe should just remains as art

I adore you not, love you not
But a word with you would mean a lot
for I need to know how you feel
about a girl whose name remains a mystery

feels like I have known you forever
and your unknown name, that's all I will remember

A Prayer

Lord, may Your will be revealed and done in me. I want my live to be well lived, well lived in You. My humanness is so limited, that I cannot comperhend. Your way is beyond my way, God. Please show me the way, let my heart be sensitive and obidient to your voice and calling. I believe in your wonderous ways. While I am waiting, give me passion and persistance. I was created and live for You and Your glory. And I want to continue my journey according to Your plan. I am sorry Lord, it has taken me this long to ask "what You want me to do with my life, for You?" I am Your servant, Lord Jesus. Guide me and give me strength so I can carry Your cross in my life. Amen.