I just figured it out!!
I felt stupid
yet happy at the same time
I am glad I asked. Otherwise I proly would be haunted by that the whole break (which clearly won't make my break any fun!)
Thank God.
But oh well, again, we shall see..
Now I am officially in my 2 WEEKS of spring break!!! =)
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Seven thoughts
Banyak bunga baru yang tumbuh
Namun yang kusuka hanya satu
Kuning kecil daffodil itu
Bagiku yang terindah walau cepat sekali layu
Musim panas tak bertahan dia
Musim dingin tiada bermekaran kuncupnya
Hujan musim semi membantunya berbunga
Walau hanya sesaat, ah kunikmati saja
Mendamba yang datang dan pergi sesuka hati
bagai mencoba memeluk awan, mengelus pelangi
Semua yang indah dan nyaman bagai mimpi di malam sunyi
Saat mentari terjaga dari tidurnya, lenyaplah ia bagai embun pagi
Mencinta yang tak pernah nyata, bagai bayang
Layaknya menggenggam pasir tuk kau bawa pulang
Lembut dan hangat dia setelah terbakar terik siang
Namun belum pula dipersimpangan, semua pasir sudah jatuh dan hilang
Sang pencinta sendiri bagai bayu dia
Laksana sungai mengalir saja menuruti bumi entah kemana
Satu yang pasti setelah semua perjalanan panjangnya
Akan berpadu dia dengan sang samudera, entah yang mana
Bila pujangga telah lelah merangkai kata
nama apakah yang akan diberikan padanya?
Cinta yang tulus itu tak terbagi, layaknya punjangga tak kan pernah habis kata
Hanya saja bisa berpindah semua puisi, lagu, dan cinta
Pada hati yang siap menerima dan mencinta setulus jiwa, entah siapa
Daffodil tak bisa hidup di atas pasir
Punjangga tak mungkin selamanya menggantung mimpi di awan
Bila sungai ini hendak mencapai hilir
dia bercabang, oh sekarang aku ada di persimpangan!
Namun yang kusuka hanya satu
Kuning kecil daffodil itu
Bagiku yang terindah walau cepat sekali layu
Musim panas tak bertahan dia
Musim dingin tiada bermekaran kuncupnya
Hujan musim semi membantunya berbunga
Walau hanya sesaat, ah kunikmati saja
Mendamba yang datang dan pergi sesuka hati
bagai mencoba memeluk awan, mengelus pelangi
Semua yang indah dan nyaman bagai mimpi di malam sunyi
Saat mentari terjaga dari tidurnya, lenyaplah ia bagai embun pagi
Mencinta yang tak pernah nyata, bagai bayang
Layaknya menggenggam pasir tuk kau bawa pulang
Lembut dan hangat dia setelah terbakar terik siang
Namun belum pula dipersimpangan, semua pasir sudah jatuh dan hilang
Sang pencinta sendiri bagai bayu dia
Laksana sungai mengalir saja menuruti bumi entah kemana
Satu yang pasti setelah semua perjalanan panjangnya
Akan berpadu dia dengan sang samudera, entah yang mana
Bila pujangga telah lelah merangkai kata
nama apakah yang akan diberikan padanya?
Cinta yang tulus itu tak terbagi, layaknya punjangga tak kan pernah habis kata
Hanya saja bisa berpindah semua puisi, lagu, dan cinta
Pada hati yang siap menerima dan mencinta setulus jiwa, entah siapa
Daffodil tak bisa hidup di atas pasir
Punjangga tak mungkin selamanya menggantung mimpi di awan
Bila sungai ini hendak mencapai hilir
dia bercabang, oh sekarang aku ada di persimpangan!
Monday, February 23, 2009
just feel like Kahlil Gibran-ing
After talking over the phone to D about poetry and writing, I felt like Kahlil Gibran-ing for a while before going back to study. Two beautiful poems by the greatest poet ever. Enjoy!
LOVE
When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.
JOY AND SORROW
Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater thar sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.
okay, now I'll focus on studying!
LOVE
When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.
JOY AND SORROW
Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater thar sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.
okay, now I'll focus on studying!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Bimbang
Song & lyrics by Melly Goeslaw
Pertama kali aku tergugah
Dalam setiap kata yang kau ucap
Bila malam tlah datang
Terkadang ingin ku tulis semua perasaan
Kata orang rindu itu indah
Namun bagiku ini menyiksa
Sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku benci saja dirimu
Namun sulit ku membenci
Pejamkan mata bila
kuingin bernafas lega
Dalam anganku aku berada
disatu persimpangan jalan yang sulit kupilih
Ku peluk semua indah hidupku
Hikmah yang ku rasa sangat tulus
Ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa
namun ada yang hilang separuh diriku
Recently re-sang by me (acoustic guitar by Alwyn Aliwarga) at Permias valentine Party
Feb, 13th 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_Np4iXDtP0
Pertama kali aku tergugah
Dalam setiap kata yang kau ucap
Bila malam tlah datang
Terkadang ingin ku tulis semua perasaan
Kata orang rindu itu indah
Namun bagiku ini menyiksa
Sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku benci saja dirimu
Namun sulit ku membenci
Pejamkan mata bila
kuingin bernafas lega
Dalam anganku aku berada
disatu persimpangan jalan yang sulit kupilih
Ku peluk semua indah hidupku
Hikmah yang ku rasa sangat tulus
Ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa
namun ada yang hilang separuh diriku
Recently re-sang by me (acoustic guitar by Alwyn Aliwarga) at Permias valentine Party
Feb, 13th 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_Np4iXDtP0
Monday, February 16, 2009
aku kangen kalian.. :(
Vous me manquez, maman, papa, ma soeur et mes freres! vous me manquez tres mal! gosh..
can't believe I won't be home until Christmas 09.
anyhow, that conversation with J really bothers my mind now. I thought that was just purely me guessing. But if so, how come J suddenly came up with that idea, without me speaking a single word about it? Could it be that it's true then? If so, how should I respond? It's pretty sudden, kind of.. Ummm, not really actually. But, oh well, I think taking it easy would be the wisest decision. New pages to write? We shall see..
Ko Bud is leaving.. I wish you all the best in life ko! Thanks for being a panutan to me! God loves you and so do I :)
can't believe I won't be home until Christmas 09.
anyhow, that conversation with J really bothers my mind now. I thought that was just purely me guessing. But if so, how come J suddenly came up with that idea, without me speaking a single word about it? Could it be that it's true then? If so, how should I respond? It's pretty sudden, kind of.. Ummm, not really actually. But, oh well, I think taking it easy would be the wisest decision. New pages to write? We shall see..
Ko Bud is leaving.. I wish you all the best in life ko! Thanks for being a panutan to me! God loves you and so do I :)
Sunday, February 8, 2009
30 hari mencari Tuhan
**quoted from our CG facebook group- steak & shake 2009 (pporly named eh?!lol). I am so excited about this program! After sebulan puasa Daniel, skrg 30 hari SATE. I am so glad to be part of these two activities for I do believe that to grow stronger in Him I need to be discipline in following Him first. And doing such activities in group surely gives me more motivation!
Hi peepz...
Want to post something up on our new program called "30 hari mencari Tuhan"...so original i know..hahah
Background: Selama sebulan ini kita di caregroup belajar mengenai God's plan versus Our plan...seperti yang kita pelajarin bahwa God's plan itu is always the best plan for us...cuman the big question remains: "how do we know God's plan?" the answer is...we have to have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ?...dalam bahasa sehari hari: kita musti punya hubungan yang intim dengan Tuhan. Seperti layaknya hubungan kita dengan orang lain, suatu hubungan itu memerlukan komunikasi, hang out time, giving time,sacrifice de el el....kalo kata Janet..and I quote..."yah..sama kalo kita lagi pacaran deh.." So sebagai salah satu bentuk aplikasinya, kita mau strenghten our personal relationship with our Lord dengan melakukan quiet time/devotional time tiap hari...
The Challenge: The challenge is called 30 hari mencari Tuhan. Semua anggota cg musti melakukan quiet/devo time tiap hari selama 30 hari straight tanpa bolong. Bentuk dari quiet/devo timenya terserah kalian, but musti involve at least the bible and a prayer...(doa makan doesn't count)....setiap minggu melalui acara cg and facebook (khususnya yang melakukan LD care group), i will ask everybody of how they're doing with the program...Let me give you an example:
Example: say kalo kita start hari senin (hari ke 1), trus hari sabtunya (hari ke 6) gue nanya (di acara cg or di facebook), "sapa yang bolong?" and then...Lina says " gue missed hari kamis"...berarti...hari sabtu itu menjadi hari ke 2...dalam kata lain...kalo ada salah satu dari kita yang miss, kita mulai lagi dari awal...kuncinya semua anggota ga boleh madol 30 hari straight...
Prize: it's never fun without a prize. So, kalo semua anggota berhasil melakukan quiet/devo time 30 days straight without madol, at the end of the program I will treat everyone out to dinner. Janji ini ga bakalan fast food. Buat yang LD, this applies to you as well. Next time I see you, I will treat you dinner.
So that's it...30 hari mencari Tuhan is on the way...kita bakal mulai besok senin (February 9 2009). Kalo ada pertanyaan, post it up in this discussion board and we'll answer it.
Have fun guys and gals!
-Tries Nainggolan
Hi peepz...
Want to post something up on our new program called "30 hari mencari Tuhan"...so original i know..hahah
Background: Selama sebulan ini kita di caregroup belajar mengenai God's plan versus Our plan...seperti yang kita pelajarin bahwa God's plan itu is always the best plan for us...cuman the big question remains: "how do we know God's plan?" the answer is...we have to have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ?...dalam bahasa sehari hari: kita musti punya hubungan yang intim dengan Tuhan. Seperti layaknya hubungan kita dengan orang lain, suatu hubungan itu memerlukan komunikasi, hang out time, giving time,sacrifice de el el....kalo kata Janet..and I quote..."yah..sama kalo kita lagi pacaran deh.." So sebagai salah satu bentuk aplikasinya, kita mau strenghten our personal relationship with our Lord dengan melakukan quiet time/devotional time tiap hari...
The Challenge: The challenge is called 30 hari mencari Tuhan. Semua anggota cg musti melakukan quiet/devo time tiap hari selama 30 hari straight tanpa bolong. Bentuk dari quiet/devo timenya terserah kalian, but musti involve at least the bible and a prayer...(doa makan doesn't count)....setiap minggu melalui acara cg and facebook (khususnya yang melakukan LD care group), i will ask everybody of how they're doing with the program...Let me give you an example:
Example: say kalo kita start hari senin (hari ke 1), trus hari sabtunya (hari ke 6) gue nanya (di acara cg or di facebook), "sapa yang bolong?" and then...Lina says " gue missed hari kamis"...berarti...hari sabtu itu menjadi hari ke 2...dalam kata lain...kalo ada salah satu dari kita yang miss, kita mulai lagi dari awal...kuncinya semua anggota ga boleh madol 30 hari straight...
Prize: it's never fun without a prize. So, kalo semua anggota berhasil melakukan quiet/devo time 30 days straight without madol, at the end of the program I will treat everyone out to dinner. Janji ini ga bakalan fast food. Buat yang LD, this applies to you as well. Next time I see you, I will treat you dinner.
So that's it...30 hari mencari Tuhan is on the way...kita bakal mulai besok senin (February 9 2009). Kalo ada pertanyaan, post it up in this discussion board and we'll answer it.
Have fun guys and gals!
-Tries Nainggolan
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