I feel horrible today. Right now. Just had some arguments with people who matter the most in my life. One of them is my boy. We have been constantly having arguments about this and that. Gees, can we just have a break from irritating each other just until I am done with my school hassles? He can be so insensitive, which irritates me. And I can be so stubborn and say mean stuff when I am stressed out.
My button's been pushed too many times in a short span of time I guess.
Just back off! I might explode!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Gloomy Easter
HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!
He's not there, for He has risen! :) Thank you dear Lord for saving me, for Your love, Your cross. So disappointed I cannot make it to church today, on Easter, due to school work load. I could have gone to church if only I was productive yesterday. Shouldn't have underestimated my 3000 words project, really. But I just couldn't help myself. Yesterday was just not my day. Feeling down and gloomy the whole day, feeling so alienated, so alone. I think I am ready to move on. Move on to a life where I will be near those whom my heart belongs to. I miss mom, dad, koko, gebot, billy, and petit ami ray. Vous me manquez, tres tres mal =(
He's not there, for He has risen! :) Thank you dear Lord for saving me, for Your love, Your cross. So disappointed I cannot make it to church today, on Easter, due to school work load. I could have gone to church if only I was productive yesterday. Shouldn't have underestimated my 3000 words project, really. But I just couldn't help myself. Yesterday was just not my day. Feeling down and gloomy the whole day, feeling so alienated, so alone. I think I am ready to move on. Move on to a life where I will be near those whom my heart belongs to. I miss mom, dad, koko, gebot, billy, and petit ami ray. Vous me manquez, tres tres mal =(
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Maaf =(
Not so long ago I thought of this old saying (which I can't recall where I picked that from), those whom I love the most are the ones who hurt me the most
Then I realized that what's true is really.. those who I love the most are the ones who I hurt the most
and that just broke my heart into pieces.
I am sorry dad.. I am sorry Ray..
Then I realized that what's true is really.. those who I love the most are the ones who I hurt the most
and that just broke my heart into pieces.
I am sorry dad.. I am sorry Ray..
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
51 days
away from graduation, I am. Cannot wait. My motivation has started to vaporized and I do not know how much I have left.
I am kinda afraid to go home, though I cannot wait to be done with my undergrad exploration. Being far from my life, for 6 years, has challenged my heart beyond what I expected. Yet, US is my comfort zone at the moment. Going home is like a simalakama for me.
I know I need to pray. Need to surrender my will and let His be done
I am kinda afraid to go home, though I cannot wait to be done with my undergrad exploration. Being far from my life, for 6 years, has challenged my heart beyond what I expected. Yet, US is my comfort zone at the moment. Going home is like a simalakama for me.
I know I need to pray. Need to surrender my will and let His be done
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